Wondering

sometimes do you wonder why you came out of the shadows? Does that moment in time haunt you ?
there are times that i wonder these things. I have not found a suitable answer as of yet.
Somedays I am very glad to walk in the light but I miss the shadows where things felt safer.
Other times ...  well.. yeah .. there are times i just want to throw the covers over my head and hide.
I dream of being back in the shadows of your light. I wonder why I was pulled from the shadows to live this "normal" life. hahaha  Normal, that is always so funny!

Normal, trying to accept a life in the light. something seems not to Dreamer like there. All in all like in the light can be very good. Then there are the MOMENTS, like today ...
Was I happier in the shadows, was anything even real there, Was it all a dream? OR maybe this life in the light is the dream ...

Maybe... just maybe we are really all figments of someone else's imagination ... thats is always possible. What happens then that person dies or stops thinking about us ( because they no longer need us). Maybe they stop thinking about us because they no longer live in the shadows...

WOW! talk about a rambling Dreamer  lol   Sorry about that!


I also wonder if anything really matters.... maybe I am just .. I don't even know a word for it ...
i don't think I'm crazy, so that is not the right word. I am sure there is a word or several out there to describe me.