Broken

i cant believe it
why do i bother
it hurts so much

when did i become the go to person
why am i always there for you
yet you cannot be there for me

as much as i care
i have to walk away
it hurts too much to stay

my soul cries out
just for a kind word
maybe a touch

i dont seem to be worth much to you
just a doll to play with
a toy to put a side
when something newer comes along

now its time for me to leave
to find my place
as more then just a doll

left feeling unwanted
my soul cries out
just for a kind word
maybe a touch


all i feel is brokenness
shattered dreams
never to see light

Waves of Depression

Falling in to a deep dark hole
dark waves of depression
closing around me

in the darkness
lost and alone
watching colours drifting by

wave after wave pulling me under
currents of sadness tearing at my soul
taking me apart bit by bit

falling deeper in to never ending darkness
slipping under the waves of sadness
falling down in to an abyss
seeing no way out

Delusions and Fantisies

I walked in to it
knowing i was no more important
then the person next to you

deluding my self with such fantasies
falling for your charm
head over heels i fell

looking in to your eyes
pretending that look is for me
betraying myself in to believing

walking from your silence
hiding the tears
turning away
leaving my heart behind

deluded and betrayed
no one to blame
just the dreams and imaginings
of a lost soul hoping for more

reminding myself
i could never walk in your world
who was i kidding
no one save myself

Lost

lost in time's memory

wanting to take a step forward

something is holding me back

screaming out unshed tears

with no one to hear

no on to care

lost in time's memory

did I ever exist

even in your imagination

screaming out

there is no one there

screaming for repentance

that doesn't exist

lost in time's memory

looking for peace

not knowing if I am

really there ...

lost and looking for a way out

is time holding on to me?

I think I'm going crazy

Come to Bed With Me

Come to bed with me

you say

There is nothing I'd like more

To be there with you

To have your hands

slide along my body

as I slide up your body

Come to bed with me

you say

My heart skips a beat

I want to be with you

To enjoy each touch

each caress

Come to bed with me

you say

My body throbs with

anticipation

The desire to taste you

to experience

everything you have

to offer and teach

Come to bed with me

you say

I'd be there in a heart beat

It would be my pleasure

I hope it would be yours too

Come to bed with me ....

Flat Lined

Here we go again

Flat Lined again

not a sound to be heard

in the darkness

I hear your voice

calling from so far away

a cry in the distance

OR did I imagine it

Spiraling down that fine line

between heaven and hell

believing in neither

waiting for the end

The End of What ?

The end of the way

I know this life

something has changed

Flat Lined again

only a faint sound is heard

the sound of your voice

calling to me

spiraling up

wrapping me in warmth

waking to the light

music of your voice

Life has changed

I'm not the same

girl

awakened inside

feeling your flame

seeing life with

new eyes

So much learned spiraling

neither here nor there

not heaven or hell

awakened to walk

a new path

to live a new life...

Shining for You

The Dreamer lost in Dreams

is it any wonder that no one notices

walking in a land of mists

waiting for that silver cloud

rain pouring down

stealing my tears

walking in this dream

your arms are around me

holding me close

the sun shines down on us

making you sparkle in the light

I am still too dull

to shine as you do

one day when they sun shines

just as brightly

with your arms around me

Or maybe in the night

under the full moon

then, yes thats when i ll shine

just for you

Lost Dreamer

The Dreamer lost in Dreams

is it any wonder that no one notices

walking in a land of mists

waiting for that silver cloud

rain pouring down

stealing my tears

walking in this dream

your arms are around me

holding me close

the sun shines down on us

making you sparkle in the light

I am still too dull

to shine as you do

one day when they sun shines

just as brightly

with your arms around me

Or maybe in the night

under the full moon

then, yes thats when i ll shine

just for you