Broken

i cant believe it
why do i bother
it hurts so much

when did i become the go to person
why am i always there for you
yet you cannot be there for me

as much as i care
i have to walk away
it hurts too much to stay

my soul cries out
just for a kind word
maybe a touch

i dont seem to be worth much to you
just a doll to play with
a toy to put a side
when something newer comes along

now its time for me to leave
to find my place
as more then just a doll

left feeling unwanted
my soul cries out
just for a kind word
maybe a touch


all i feel is brokenness
shattered dreams
never to see light

Waves of Depression

Falling in to a deep dark hole
dark waves of depression
closing around me

in the darkness
lost and alone
watching colours drifting by

wave after wave pulling me under
currents of sadness tearing at my soul
taking me apart bit by bit

falling deeper in to never ending darkness
slipping under the waves of sadness
falling down in to an abyss
seeing no way out

Delusions and Fantisies

I walked in to it
knowing i was no more important
then the person next to you

deluding my self with such fantasies
falling for your charm
head over heels i fell

looking in to your eyes
pretending that look is for me
betraying myself in to believing

walking from your silence
hiding the tears
turning away
leaving my heart behind

deluded and betrayed
no one to blame
just the dreams and imaginings
of a lost soul hoping for more

reminding myself
i could never walk in your world
who was i kidding
no one save myself