Lost and Alone

Lost and Alone

i feel the night closing in on me

i know that you are not here

i feel so lost and alone

i could cry..

but its no use

what good are tears to a broken soul

a soul shattered and alone

i cant have you here

and i cant be there

you are working

i should be sleeping

we both know im not good on my own

we both know im falling a part

i can feel the tears

they slide down my cheeks

they sting more then being alone

alone and lost with out you

i cant find you in the night

im lost and alone

i cant stop the tears

they come with all my fears

i will try to be strong

i will try to move on

another tear slides down

i turn to walk away

Time and Time Again

Time and Time Again

time and time again

i think about you

i wonder what it would be like

to touch you

to hear your intake of breath

as my hand caresses you

if close my eyes

I can feel you next to me

your touch so tender

as your hand slides over my skin

i feel like im on fire

a fire you started

maybe i started this fire

i want more of your heat

your lips are incredible 

you taste wonderful

i feel my self melt into you

you pull me closer into you

i can feel your hardness

against my stomach

i wiggle myself closer

i can feel you shudder

i want to wrap my self around you

i want you to hold me close

time and time again

i find myself thinking about you

Sleepy

SLEEPY

im am so tired as we talk

yet you keep me smiling

i know that soon i should go

yet i do not want to leave

i hear my bed calling 

i can feel the sheets covering me

i think of you as my eyes close

knowing you have a full day before you

your day has started

mine is ending

should have ended long ago

but i just couldnt leave

im getting so sleepy

im not making sense

im so sleepy

im getting mixed up

my bed calls louder

but im not ready to leave

im so sleepy...

I have to go

I See You

     I See You

i see you in the night

i see you in the light

your eyes shining through

they see through my walls

you see to my soul 

you break down the wall

far or near 

we are connected

your thoughts are mine

your pain is mine

i try to run

but you dont let go

the wall has fallen

you see me

good and bad

happy and sad

i am yours

as you are mine

My Two Friends

My Two Friends

one friend gave me the inspiration to write again

another gave me the words to begin with

two friends so different

yet both mine

both amazing people

with smiles so bright

and hearts so big

two friends so different

yet both mine

in different parts of the world

so far apart we all are

yet both so close to my heart

my two friends..

so different

yet so amazing in their love

and friendship

two friends

i am the common link

i love them both

my two friends

two of the most amazing

people i know

my two friends

i thank you for being apart

of my life

I See You Walking

i see you walking

I see you walking

you walk across the room

you facinate me

i have seen none other like you

tall and golden

dark and beautiful

good and evil do not exist

a balance of all that is

of all that will be

you walk in the light

you are a shadow in the night

you shine in my heart

i see you walking

you walk away from everyone

you walk into the night

In The Shadows

In The Shadows

I stand in the shadows

you can't see me

you don't know that im here

i can see your pain

but your not ready for me

the pain hasnt came yet

I stand in the shadows

i stand here and watch

as events unfold

i know the hurt that is coming

i see it in your eyes

you know it too

I stand in the Shadows

i wait for you to feel me

but you still can't see me

you turn in my direction

but you dont see me

it's just not time

I stand in the shadows

i stand here and wait

waiting for you

waiting for you to remember

that i am here

when the hurt comes

I stand in the Shadows

you cant see me

you know im here....

The Mirror

The Mirror

a friend told me to look in the mirror

that i would find beauty there

all i saw was a pair of sad eyes

looking back at me

eyes that change

gray, blue and green

neutral, happy and angry

tonight i saw my reflection 

in a new light

i saw eyes that were not mine

yet they belong to me

tonight i saw something more

i saw beauty

a beauty that is old

a beauty that is new

and then she was gone...

a friend told me to look in the mirror

i guess it was the wrong one

i looked in and saw a smile

a smile that holds knowledge

knowledge that i do not have yet

knowledge that i hope to come to

i looked in and saw a reflection

a reflection of you

those who are within me

those who are a part of me

past, present and future

a friend told me to look in the mirror...