Something New ( Super Hero )

I'm going to try something new today ... it's a work in progress so, please be patient with me.


I didn't know that life as a Super Hero was going to be so lonely.  If I would have known, maybe I would have left everyone on their own. I can't fix everyone's problems or lives. It just doesn't work that way!

I sit here in the sun, wondering... Wondering why? Why didn't I just walk away. Especially knowing none of you are going to help me, by helping yourselves.

A drink in hand, wondering why I shatter myself for you. I drink in the sunlight and walk the streets in the screaming darkness. I stare in to a drink that will never touch my lips. Never dance gracefully along my tongue.

I scream in to the light while clawing at the darkness. A Super Hero going crazy. Going crazy hearing your voice in my head. Calling out to me. Taunting my waking moments and haunting my soul.

I once reached for you in my sleep. Yet in reality, you were never there. Long gone, lost in the darkness of my imagination. Slipping in to long gone memories, I see you standing before me. Are you real? I have shattered my life to keep you safe. For WHAT?! When I have lost you to the mists.

On the outside I wear a mask. A mask to hide from you. A mask of confidence. When I wear this mask, you all know me. You know I am there to help make things right. To make YOUR life better. People cheer for me and call my name, as if they know me.

WHAT do THEY know?! What do you know about me??  The REAL me... the person lost behind the mask.