Sunset Dreams

The wave upon the shore

is like my heart beat

as I sit here I feel

my pulse in sync with

each wave

The sand on my feet

like a lovers caress

a little rough

yet so smooth

The breeze caressing me

makes me think of you

your breath across my skin

your hands playing in my hair

The last of the sun's rays

glittering across the water

like a happy tear running

down my cheek

I sit here being

lulled into a dream

by the waves and breeze

Dreams of you

that I wish could come true.

A World Dreams

walking in a world of dreams

where everything is untouchable

i reach my hand out to you

only to have you slip through my fingers

my voice calls to you

only to go unheard echoing off the walls

i cannot see though the mist

there are only shadows of reality

are you here

are you real

maybe I'm not really here

i don't think I'm real

just a distant memory

a thought out of time

I walk through this world of dreams

looking for you, looking for me

a place where everything is

yet there is nothing

a world where reality and dreams collide

they crash together as the waves on the shore

in the distance i walk through this world

where all is untouchable

walking in a world of dreams

where everything is untouchable

Vampire... Merlot

so red

so dark

so smooth

i want more

i want to tingle

i want to shiver

goes down so smooth

spreading heat as it goes

leaving me wanting more

I see my chalice is getting empty

but my thirst remains

one more glass

is all i ask

more of the deep darkness

that can be tasted

the spice of immortal life

you relieve the long hours of the night

sip by sip you calm my nervous energy

sip by sinful sip you leave me wanting more

more of your immortal taste

my chalice is empty

i can still taste you on my lips

so dark and spicey

the light is coming

the darkness is done

i will be back

for another taste

of your immortal soul

Take Me As I Am

Take me as I am

take me as i am

im not special

just me

just a woman

walking my own path

looking for missing pieces of my soul

i am not perfect

i am a person of faults

i write in the darkness

for fear you will see me

and not really know me

i cry in the rain

for the shame of tears

i cannot let you see

i smile in the summer sun

it warms me

as the breeze caresses me

i scream my frustration in the storm

that way no one knows my pain

i play in the puddles

as a child seeking enjoyment

through the dark and light

in the sun and storms

please take me as i am

a child a girl a woman

seeking fulfillment

seeking a place of my own

as a daughter, mother and wife

i have been lost in a title

drop the title and see me

see the woman standing in the shadows

I seek the light of your love

Lost in a Moment of Time

Lost in a Moment of Time

lost in a moment of time

lost in thoughts of you

lost in this moment

that will never came back

lost in a moment of time

a time of happiness

a time of love and joy

a time unchanging

lost in a moment of time

a time of sorrow

a time of loss

a time of remembrance

lost in a moment of time

a touch

a sensation

a feeling

never to be felt again

lost in a moment of time

it lasts for an eternity

lingering in a memory

suspended in time

lost in a moment of time

cant go back

cant go forward

stopped in the moment

Forgotten Remembrance

I had forgotten the feel of the Sun's kiss

of the gentle breeze caressing my skin

the grass tickling my feet

I had forgotten the rich spice sent of the summer air

flowers in bloom

the sounds of the leaves

rustling in the wind

I had forgotten how to sit still and listen

to the many birds calling out

the bees buzzing by

the water lapping at the shore

I had forgotten how to quiet my mind

and become one with nature

to join my energy to hers

I sit here in remembrance of all I have forgotten

of all I want to be.

This past week i have had 2 amazing days!

The first... I want for an amazing walk with my Husband. I haven't felt that close to nature since i was a child. To smell all the green growing things and the decaying ones, it was so ... WOW!

To walk along the river and see life from a different point of view. OMGs it was incredible!

Just to feel the energy coming from the land!

Then today... another WOW!

I really thought today was going to be a down day. We went to my Uncle Moose's funeral... supposed to be a time of mourning ( at least to our culture) became a time finding life. Reclaiming life and what she has to offer. I became alive again, in so many ways.

Once again we went for another amazing walk, during our drive home. To feel that close to nature.. to feel the breeze across ones skin and to hear the creek running in the distance. Once again to feel the energy coming from all of nature, the trees the grasses, just everything!

Then there was the conversation on the way home... another WOW! haha haha Lots of those today! To be able to talk so freely about our thoughts and feelings... about everything!

Especially about different kinds of relationships... WOW! Its amazing ... to have my husband see me as a real person with thoughts and desires and feelings, not just a barbie doll, stepford wife!

I think Uncle Moose would have a proved of today's events :D

I know I did!

i just hope my Friend will as well.... although I'm not sure how much I'm ready to tell him! hah! we'll just see where things go! ;)

I am feeling more alive today then i have in a very long time.... thank you Husband and a special thanks to Uncle Moose!

On a funny last note...

How many husband will sit and help their wife pick out a new boyfriend? that was so much fun with you Love! Knowing that its all in fun....